The Physical Body Never Forgets.
I have been on a path of personal development for over 35 years. At the beginning of my journey it became evident that not only did my mind remember traumatic events, but my physical body also recalled all physical and emotional trauma.
In my experience during healing sessions my body would often take over by re-living the physical trauma inflicted on me as a child. I have accepted wholeheartedly that the physical body has cellular memory and that my body is more than willing to expel long held pain from past events, so I can be well in all aspects of my life. Many people go into doubt about what triggers a memory from the past. All I can suggest is, if you trust in your body’s willingness to heal and become well, it can help you to let go of the stagnation of energies caused by unhealed trauma. So this week I went to have a Craniosacral session with a local practitioner who I love and admire. For those of you who aren’t familiar with the technique, here is an explanation: (Craniosacral therapy (CST) is a form of bodywork or alternative therapy using gentle touch to palpate the synarthrodial joints of the cranium. A practitioner of craniosacral therapy may also apply light touches to a patient’s spine and pelvic bones. Practitioners believe that this palpation regulates the flow of cerebrospinal fluid and aids in ‘primary respiration.) tea. During the session she started to work inside my mouth to relieve some tension in my jaw. A very painful exercise, but it certainly gives a lot of relief, and is therefore worth it. I initially thought that as the last few years of my life have been quite stressful I was being assisted to let go of those stresses that my jaw was holding onto. On one level that was probably what was going on, however on a deeper level what came to the surface was the pain and memory of three head traumas I experienced earlier on in my life, each resulting in concussion. Amazing to feel the physical release of tension associated with the trauma, but also emotionally confronting. Although I have done work on my head injuries in the past and all sorts of feelings have arisen because of the trauma, this time there was another layer, that although emotional, felt like something about my very beingness had been held-back, and restricted for a very long time. An angry family member inflicted one of the concussions and the other two were self-inflicted by not watching where I was going or what I was doing. My childhood was extremely stressful and I was often sleep deprived. But still today I rush around and ‘accidently’ have small accidents that result in me experiencing some minor injuries. My beautiful inner child in her own way was self- harming, although I was not conscious of it at the time. It is obvious that even today the pattern continues to some degree. As a child I know I didn’t want to be here, and I guess being ‘out of it’ and not in my body somehow shielded me from what was really going on in my home and with my family. And perhaps I was also screaming out for attention, because my parents were so consumed with hating each other, they forgot how to show love to their beautiful children. By re-living these events I realize that I need to focus on getting good quality sleep, and be mindful to nurture myself before nurturing others. And to no longer create any 'accidents' that cause harm to my body, for me to feel real, or present. Or to escape the reality of my life, after all, my life is pretty amazing. Naturally for a day or so I was rattled physically and emotionally after the session. It shook things up from long ago. But I do feel different somehow; lighter, freer in my jaw and neck, and more loving toward my inner child, and myself. And I am definitely feeling a deeper level of compassion for the family I travelled my childhood with. Love and Blessings, Claire